Strain this choas turn it into light

How can I explain how wonderful it is to be here? I don't think I can do this feeling justice....but I'll give it a try. Many people I know would not enjoy being around a few old folks like I do. I love their stories. There is so much to learn from those who have the larger portion of their lives in their memories instead of out of their grasp. And believe me... there is always a story when you through my grandma, her boyfriend Ned, and grandma's brother (Uncle Jim to me). The best part is you can see it in their eyes when they talk. They are lost in their memory searching through the pictures in their minds to make sure the story is accurate. Along with the stories and after a few cocktails we discussed beliefs and the idea of a positive attitude. Which was fascinating to me to here since I've come to the realization lately that it's something necessary to my life. I feel I've inherited that trait from my mother and according to my great Uncle Jim it originated from his mother....although he believed she was sometimes naively optimistic, in a way that she didn't want to face the truth and just stated "everything will be alright".
As I sat and watched the generations before me talking about life and threw in my piece every once in awhile...I had one of those moments..... Where all you can do is smile and feel alive. It's in moments like this that I don't understand a lack of spirituality in your life. I don't think I could ever practice a religion but I definitely believe in SOMETHING...what it is I can't say. I consider myself a spiritual person and I have an interest in all religions because I'm fascinated that someone can believe so strongly in something without exposure to any other religion...and I also find it disturbing. Anyways after this experience and a day at the museum last week learning about Tibetan Buddhist art I've decided I need to learn more about this religion but who knows when that will happen.
My feet are blistered all over and sore but I'm back to work and generally I like it...when August rolls around I will be ecstatic. So many things ahead but this month is all about hard work....guess it's about time.
Peace and Love