I'm back....2009 style

I know it's been a long time since writing last. But to be honest there has not been a place for this in my life recently. My thoughts were too much my own to share. I spent a wonderfully challenging 3 and a half months in Rome, Italy. I overcame more than I ever thought I could and I grew a lot in directions I was not expecting to. Life has a funny way of throwing things at you that had nothing to do with expectations. "Here see how you can handle this one" Sometimes that's what it feels like. As I start this new year I want to start writing more....although maybe not always on here. I think it is important that I get my thoughts out, because as some of you may know...my thoughts are not always clear to even me. They take some coaxing out. I am looking to this year to challenge myself to continue to grow in ways I know I have been slowing branching out towards in my mind and turning those thoughts into actions. Since I have been back I have been very busy. I had a lot of catching up to do. The strange thing is it felt like I was stuck a little bit. I spent these last few months learning more than I think I have ever learned in such a short span. I ventured out into areas of an ancient city that were not so ancient anymore and some places that retained that magical quality. I want to explore the world around me here in the way that I did Rome. Now this might be a bit difficult considering many of my explorations were planned by informed practically natives of the city but none the less this is the challenge I propose to myself. In a very short time things will be picking up tremendously only to consume many of my creative thoughts as they typically do but I will fight them to keep myself here. I know that I must live here indefinitely because of financial stability and for that I must make the best of it. I think I've lost some of my positivity and adopted a bit of some bugs outlook and I would like to help that bug get to a place I remember so fondly but seldom remember to think about. Thinking this way saves me and I think it could save this bug too. So here is to a beginning of the next chapter....bring it on. I know it won't be easy but that does not mean it cannot be moved through with a smile and some chocolate and other good things too. I guess this means officially....I'M BACK!