<3

My thoughts are jumbled
My speech stutters
You turn my insides out
It's the way you look at me
and smile
Nothing else seems to matter

You hold me tight
You are my every thought
My eyes awake to visions of you
each morning
Each night I dream of only you

<3

So Much

First week of school under my belt and I'm feeling like I'm going to be incredibly busy this semester. I will be in the dark room or shooting all the time. The truth of the matter is that there is no better way to learn this stuff though. I guarantee there will be breakdowns but I love the fact that there are people to help get me through them. This semester, although looking busy seems to be promising as well. Steph and I are already regular gym goers, which greatly improves my mood because I have a tendency to get frustrated quite often. Yup that's right I said frustrated. It's my word and I'm not looking for a new one. Anyways all I have to remember when this semester gets frustrating is that this summer is going to be filled with too much working and nothing else and then life doesn't seem so bad. I'm lucky that I got that positive outlook, (well for the most part positive) but without it life would seem a lot longer.

I've reached this point where I'm 95% sure that after I graduate I'm packing my car and off to the west. I don't think people realize how often I feel like I'm not meant to be here forever. I love the people I'm around but I just know I could never start a life here. Before I leave there are things I want to do though. I want to spend more time in Philly since people seem so attached to it around here. I want to hike in the mountains. I want to go to the shore again since my first trip was different than most adventures there sound. I want to get into NYC more because as much as I could never live there I love to visit. I want to head up north...like all the way to Maine and see what the north east is all about. It would be cool to go to Nashville.
So many things, so little time, so little money.
Smiles.