Once again it's been a bit since I've written but there have been some other things that were a bit more important than dissing my thoughts and life out on here. I started the semester last week with a bang. While I'm excited for some of my classes it's busy. When I'm not in class I'm at work, driving or eating before I pass out from exhaustion. It makes an interesting time though. I put so much time into my work while I was in Rome...nothing else to really do during the week. I had forgotten how nice that was. So with this busy time it makes it difficult to find time to hang out with people. I'm sure it will get easier. I'm working really hard on focusing on now. I like my mother love to have something to look forward to and I thin I need to find joy in looking forward to smaller things in the closer future. Graduation will come too soon and I will have to be too much of an adult than I would like to be. I know it's the right thing to do in these times but I can't help thinking something will be missing....

Ok getting a little too into that thought. I have to get myself together now. A long overdue shower needs to be taken and I gotta get some stuff together to give to the goodwill, figure out what I want to do with my photo life this semester and maybe if I'm lucky find a coat rack to continue with the constant organization of my room.

I'm back....2009 style

I know it's been a long time since writing last. But to be honest there has not been a place for this in my life recently. My thoughts were too much my own to share. I spent a wonderfully challenging 3 and a half months in Rome, Italy. I overcame more than I ever thought I could and I grew a lot in directions I was not expecting to. Life has a funny way of throwing things at you that had nothing to do with expectations. "Here see how you can handle this one" Sometimes that's what it feels like. As I start this new year I want to start writing more....although maybe not always on here. I think it is important that I get my thoughts out, because as some of you may know...my thoughts are not always clear to even me. They take some coaxing out. I am looking to this year to challenge myself to continue to grow in ways I know I have been slowing branching out towards in my mind and turning those thoughts into actions. Since I have been back I have been very busy. I had a lot of catching up to do. The strange thing is it felt like I was stuck a little bit. I spent these last few months learning more than I think I have ever learned in such a short span. I ventured out into areas of an ancient city that were not so ancient anymore and some places that retained that magical quality. I want to explore the world around me here in the way that I did Rome. Now this might be a bit difficult considering many of my explorations were planned by informed practically natives of the city but none the less this is the challenge I propose to myself. In a very short time things will be picking up tremendously only to consume many of my creative thoughts as they typically do but I will fight them to keep myself here. I know that I must live here indefinitely because of financial stability and for that I must make the best of it. I think I've lost some of my positivity and adopted a bit of some bugs outlook and I would like to help that bug get to a place I remember so fondly but seldom remember to think about. Thinking this way saves me and I think it could save this bug too. So here is to a beginning of the next chapter....bring it on. I know it won't be easy but that does not mean it cannot be moved through with a smile and some chocolate and other good things too. I guess this means officially....I'M BACK!