Fly into the light of the dark black night

SO much to do and not enough time.
I used to be so calm and relaxed about stuff but lately the little things are starting to stress me out. Things that don't really matter take on greater meanings than I'd like. I think it's just because it's the end of the semester.
As stressed out as I am I'm not really looking forward to going home for winter break. Holiday's here are just a little lacking compared to past years. I mean I love my family but it's like a limited portion of the people I consider to be a part of my family.
Speaking of family, my sister will probably be moving to San Diego next year and then eventually my parents and I'm not completely sure I want to do that. I would love to be near my cousins, their kids, my aunt and grandma. So my latest and greatest idea is this: Road trip with Stacey across the country to San Diego...live in an apartment and get a job...when my sister graduates she joins me in the apartment and gets a job as well. Oh my god I'm so freaking excited I hope it works out!
Projects galore in the art world and I think I'm being a little over ambitious but might as well take chances. It's the time to learn. I love learning. I'm so curious about things.
Distractions are difficult to deal with...conflicting feelings. Gotta sort um out.
All I can say is Kal Ho Naa Ho!

I guess you're just what I needed

So the trip to the west coast was wonderful!
I got to see a ton of people I haven't seen in awhile and missed a few I would have really liked to see. Never a dull moment on the island. So I have a ton of pics but I'm just gonna put a few up.

So these are the people I spent Thanksgiving with. From left to right for those of you who don't know them : Chelsea (linny lives in her room now) , Linny (my sissy), Jackie (my childhood buddy), Me, Kristie (middle smith child who I've always had the most in common with), Lauren (the smith's cousin), Olivia (The youngest smith)
Yummy dinner at Wild Ginger with the whole family. Me, my brother Johnny, and my sister Linus:)
I just had to put this pic up because I love that painting and I think my mom looks gorgeous!
That's all for now folks:P

You give me something

So this is the infamaous FROG ROCK for those of you east coasters that don't already know.
The parents and I went to Battle Point yesterday and saw the duckies.
Parents at the park...aren't they cute?

Gorgeous day at the park.Walking down the stairs at my old house to the beach. Oh how I miss this.
My favorite view! Too bad the clouds are covering the mountains. Wow what a good life I had here.
Mom and Dad shocked at what the new people did with the backyard.

And here she is herself. My old house. It's decieving it's gorgeous once you pass that gate in the back on the right. Memories are so weird. I love it here but I'm glad I don't live here anymore. Be back to the east soon. I miss all my friends. Jenny is coming home tomorrow though!

Somewhere between a memory and a dream

So this is where my sister lives now. It's beautiful and she seems very happy so I'm happy for her. I was so excited to see her and I know she is happy to see me but sometimes it's really hard to tell. I miss her all the time and I hope she feels the same way too. We've been through a lot in our relationship and I can only hope that we will remain friends throughout our lives but I feel like we just continue to grow apart. I don't even know what her favorite things are any more.

This is the lovely home of my second family...The Smith's ... this is where I spent so much of my childhood. For those of you who don't already know that.
Here's my fam. Aren't that cute!

Mom and Cathy and that kitchen where I will be spending Thanksgiving Day!
Well until next time loyal readers.
Peace AAAAND Love.
That was for you STACE.

Don't forget about the blue skies, sunrise, and all the space between

The beautiful Mt. Rainer from the plane.

I'm HERE!
Lack of sleep. Long day of travels.
Children under the age of 10 should not be allowed to fly on planes. I guess they could allow for them to be put in a straight jacket and duck tape there mouths...but only if they tie them to the seats as well.
The Devil Wears Prada, was a cute movie though.
Luckily we ran into some cool girls on the ferry ride over.
It's amazing how driving around the streets and eating at old restaurants now has a completely different feel to it. This is not my HOME anymore. I love it here and I hold a special place for it here but it's a memory more than a future. I'm OK with that.
I'm missing Thanksgiving dinner with all my friends tomorrow but it looks like there's drama going on with that so maybe it's for the best. Can't wait to find what this week holds in store for me. I get to see my sister tomorrow! Stay tuned for more to come.
<3 miss you already

Tornado WARNING

Severe weather in Eastern PA today. Although it's warm it is blowing and raining and I LOVE it. The only downside is I have to go to class in a couple hours and I can't stay home and enjoy it from indoors.
Look at that sucker he's getting pretty close to my window;)

So I just wanted to say, I have the best friends. I love talking to all of them and I love that they are always there for me. Best of all I have friends all over the country and although some of those westcoasters are far away and we lose touch it's always so much fun when we see eachother again. I am SO incredibly excited to go home! There are some people I'm gonna see that I haven't seen since I graduated and I've missed them. So hopefully it works out to see them.
Remember these days! 4 more classes and a test and I'm FREE!

I guess nothing is black and white with us artist types

I need my space and time to figure out stuff.

I got an e-mail from my mom this morning encouraging me to check out her friends son's website. He dropped out of college a few years ago and has been pursuing his music career and living in NYC. Kudos to him for having the guts to follow his dreams. So check Adam Richman out at www.myspace.com/AR . He has some very interesting views on politics in the world today... many of which I agree with.
Anyways I'm supposed to be writing a paper right now but of course stuff that needs to get done is usually the last thing I want to do.
All I want to do is drive around the back roads here and take pictures of the gorgeous country side before all the leaves are gone. My camera and I seriously need to spend some more time together I'm going through withdraw.

Gotta date with a plane in 4 days:)

Dish week: just one more thing to add to my list of stuff to get done before TURKEY DAY!!!

I went home Saturday night to do some laundry and eat some good homemade food. My house is too pretty around this time of year so I had to take a few pics and show you all.

BUBBA!

Side view of my house. That's my window up there in the top right corner.

The back of my house.

Lazy Sunday

5 days of school. so much get done. not enough time.

It's amazing what a difference a year makes. I'm in such a better place this year than I was last. I'm all smiles this year and haven't been stuck under those clouds like I have so many years past.

I love my friends even though well all gossip and talk shit about eachother. In our little neighborhood nothing is a secret but whatever...live and let live.

So as advised by John Mayer I'm listening to this british singer James Morrison right now and I gotta say I really like him. He's got this raspy bluesy voice.

So Friday Stace and I drove down to KOP and went shopping. I got the cutest hat that I probably won't take off for the next few months. We ate some sushi for dinner and just before the drive home we stopped at STARBUCKS and I drank a chai tea (oh how I miss starbucks). On the way back we got stuck in traffic and it took us a good half hour to go 5 miles...good thing I don't get stressed about stuff like that. Stacey and I had a good talk about life and religion. Shout out to Gwen for all those fun religious talks we have...and guess what I'm taking a class about religion next semester.
So in a few days I will find myself back on my home coast and I am beyond excited to be overwhelmed by green trees and rain. Can't wait to see eveyone!

9 days and tomorrow is FRIDAY!

9 days till I get to see this lovely girl. Even though we have our differences and we don't always get along I miss her smiling face.

I get to see these lovely ladies too. I'm so freaking excited.
It was such a gorgeous day today. Who knew it would hit 65 in November. It's supposed to be beautiful this weekend too. So much to do still before I'm offically free but tomorrow I'm forgeting that and Stacey and maybe Tannah and I are going down to King of Prussia for some shopping, movies, and good food. Friday's are the best. Thanks for reading and commenting all you friends from all around the country. I love you and hopefully those of you I haven't seen in awhile I will see very soon.
Keep smiling :)

Democracy is a wonderful thing!

So today is election day and I feel it's my duty as a citizen to vote. Not only because it is one time where you can make a difference in your government but also because I was raised by my feminist mother and well educated on the struggles on women's suffrage. So anyways my mom and I drove out to Hope Community Church in Fogelsville so I could cast my ballot. We met this cute old woman named Victoria who we found out lives a few streets over from us. What a small world. She was so cute though and she told us how she cross country skis around our area....we talked about all kinds of stuff. Finally we got to the front of the line and I stuck this little card in tha machine and voting for all my liberal buddies :). It's weird to live around so many conservatives since I was raised in pretty much the opposite environment. My mom being the cutest freaking thing ever took my picture out side the church to document today.

Cheesy smile and all.
11 days!and I'm on my way.

And the coutdown begins

I have this thing about reading my horoscope...it's not that I truely believe in it but it's amazing those days when you read it and it just hits home...so here's mine for today.
You don't have to know what the end result will be -- just keep putting one foot in front of the other and have a little faith. (Of course, a lot would be even better for your morale.) You'll get to the proper destination for you.

So it's been awhile since I've written. I've been incredibly busy. My tendencies to procrastinate and live one day at a time are being supressed so as to get everything done before I check out early and head back to the land of the liberals and green trees. Last week went by so fast and this one will too because it is so packed full of stuff to do. There are officially 13 days left until I'm on that plane and able to see all my friends and my little sister. Although we don't get along all the time I'm beyond excited to see her.
I have about 13 hours left to study and far too much to do in that time...so of course I'm off to take a hot tub with my mum before I get some work done.