Pretty little bird sat on my window. Told me I don't need to worry.

Tomorrow is February.

Life flies by so fast. The moments you want to hold on too don't always slow down enough for you to enjoy them.

Lately we've been getting flurries all the time and just a little snow will stick.....it makes me happy. I would like just one big snow though with a cancelled day of classes....a big snow ball fight with all the neighbors and then some good hot chocolate like the kind Denis let me and Stace have yesterday...mmm.

I made it to the gym with Steph and Jen yesterday. Steph woke me up from my power nap by flicking my light on and off...she makes me laugh everyday. Then we convinced ourselves going to the gym was a good thing. We ran a mile and I did 170 sit ups and now I feel like I should have a six pack.....not quite, that will never happen. We are going to look at a house today and I'm excited because this is probably our last chance to get out of the cliffs....either way I'm happy. It's not like I can go to the bar anyways :(

I almost fell asleep in my photo class yesterday....I could have passed out in that chair for a good 2 hours. It's only because I slept at Denis' and Parke woke me up singing at 6 in the morning....that would drive me nuts I don't know how he deals with it every morning. Then I slept badly after that and finally got up and walked in the cold to painting. Jenna never misses class....she's neurotic like that.. and she wasn't there I hope she's ok.

Alright I must get ready to engage my mind in some religious philosophical thoughts.
All I wanna do is take pictures.

:P

Old Picture

<3 you make me smile

Slow down you crazy child

It's Wednesday already. Monday I found myself sitting around and feeling like something was missing. I get homesick every once in awhile. I don't necessarily mean for my 'home' here, I mean for the west. I've probably talked about this numerous times but it's something I think about more than people realize. I feel I was meant to be here for now but I get thinking about my coast and I miss it. This semester is everything I want it too be....interesting and challenging but I still find myself complaining about class. Then I realize what the hell am I complaining about....There's nothing worse than sitting in a class and counting down the minutes. I'm trying to live in the now because later will come soon enough. I'm enjoying my classes a lot and I really like being here but I'm so excited for this summer I just want to skip over this semester...weird.
I am so blessed. I have more than a person could ask for and when I find myself in those moments where I can't help but just feel sad I can only wonder WHY.
So I went home for dinner last night. I was just what I needed. Mom and I went in the hot tub and just talked about stuff...I don't know what I'd do without you mom. Don't worry we'll make it back to San Diego :)
I have class in a bit for 4 and a half hours then I'm gonna try and get to the gym because my body needs it badly. When I get back I'm going to relax and go to sleep early because 8am's are killing me. Hopefully I get to see you today.

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore,
shades of gray and
I feel a weight over my shoulder
it's tough gettin older

Seems like nothing is black and white anymore

Listening to: Colbie Caillat.
I've been listening to her a lot lately because she has a gorgeous voice. She's got that whole I'm just a girl with a guitar feel....love it. You can find her on myspace...which is where I discovered her. good stuff.

Ok so I should be reading for my religious studies class but I haven't written in awhile because the first week of school was nutso. I think I'm going to enjoy all of my classes and they are gonna challenge me in the way that I need. Knowledge is power. mwhahahaaa. :)

Yesterday the Stace, Steph, Jack and I piled in a car and tried to make our way to watchThis guy play hockey. After getting lost for a good 20 minutes made our way toward the sovereign center while the snow was falling. Steph and I had never watched a hockey game before and I've gotta say I would watch more. It was fun. The guys get so into it and go after each other instead of the puck...Stacey loved it haha. Anyway they won, it was awesome.
Off to another week of classes...just taking it a day at a time.

Drunken Blog

Back at schooooool! I love it. I love my friends and the laughs. We sit around and talk about stupid shit that we find important and as weird as it is it brings us closer. We got drunk tonight and watched finding nemo and aladdin......good times. This semester is gonna be a challenge in a good way and I'm excited! Ok I will def write more tomorrow when im in the right mind set but I just want to say that I love my friends for all that they are!!!!!! Keep smiling because we are living the good life.
<3

Pages turning...

Listening to:

My mom's favorite is Jackson Browne. His voice is so beautiful though and I've grown to really like his music over the years. It's comforting and true poetry.
Though we struggle to define ourselves separately from our parents, little things that they do or say inevitably find their way into our being and everyday life.

I woke up around 10:30 this morning after hiding under a pillow to dodge the sun attacking me through the window and the restlessness of my dogs, ready to start the day. After feeding them I wandered back to my parents room with some chessmen cookies and a big glass of pineapple orange juice to enjoy a little Gilmore Girls banter. A short while later, I dressed and wandered around outside with the boys and found myself sitting on a bench looking across the valley, pondering what I was going to do with the rest of my day. After rescheduling my classes (so I now only have one early morning!) I jumped into pool, swam for awhile and then just floated. I miss the ocean. I can't wait to live close by this summer...oh how I wish it was a few months from now. Well anyways... after swimming I went and made some deviled eggs because I've never done it before and I'm trying to expand my cooking horizons. I took my eggs back to my parents room and watched Nanny McPhee. It was quite cute.

Sometimes I think I'm too much of a dreamer. I wish I was able to live in the present better than I do. I'm so indecisive. I hate that about myself and my nervous energy drives me crazy sometimes. I get restless so easy and all I want to do is just DRIVE....anywhere. Sometimes I wish I could speak like I write. I miss the ease of the west coast very badly right now and I miss my sister a lot...more than she'll ever know.

Still thinking good thoughts from Grandpa Doug.
Gonna go sing and play some spider solitaire.

The times they are a changin'

There hits a certain point in a girls life where the home she grew up in is no longer her home. Now I'm a special case because I had a young childhood home, a pre-teen/early teen home, and a later teen home. So I've never had that exact point where you realize the house you grew up in is no longer your house but if I still lived in the same house I spent those awkward young years in I think that feeling would be equivalent to what I feel now.

When I come home it's wonderful to have home cooked meals, dishes done unless I'm asked to do them, and a clean house....besides those areas that I chose to dwell in. What I'm really trying to say is that the luxuries of home life at this point don't out weigh the freedom and experimental times of the college life. So basically. I'm ready to go back to school.
I'm taking all classes I have an interest in this semester and although they will be challenging I'm more excited than nervous. I don't think people realize how much I actually like learning. In fact I find ways to do it on a daily basis. I'm a curious person and I think that's a good quality to have.

Wednesday morning before the sunrises and most of the people that read this blog have just fallen asleep, my parents will be on their way to the airport to catch a flight to Bountiful, Utah where my dad grew up. Best wishes to my grandpa and also my dad's side of the family in mending relationships. While my jet setter parents are off in the land of snowy mountains and trees, I will be here with my pups and whoever decides to come visit. I'm looking forward to the solitude and dreading it a little because this house was meant for more than just a couple people and even so....I will need to get out and do something soon because I've spent a lot of nothing hours here. Mum and pop return on Saturday and the next day I'll pack up my shit in my lovely clean car (which I don't know if I mentioned before, is clean now and there will be no more smoking in...sorry Stace) and I will find my way back to my little apartment in the cliffs!

So good luck to everyone in this new semester in all the struggles that you encounter, may you find happiness in the simple pleasures of life to get you through the day.

I have this thing for roofs

First of all I know none of these people/cats in these photos. Although I do know the first one is in Milan and the second somewhere in Britain.
When I was younger I'd crawl out my window and sit on my roof. I don't know why but I always felt calm and happy when I'd just go out there and stare at the world from another view.
Now I wish I could view the world and capture what I see with my camera. There are so many places I want to go in my life before I chose one.
I watched this documentary on Annie Leibovitz yesterday. She is one of the most interesting people. She's a photographer who started out at Rolling Stone when the mag was just beginning. She eventually started shooting for Vogue and Vanity Fair. She's probably the most famous celebrity photographer. That cover of Demi Moore when she was pregnant was one of her most famous. The picture that struck me the most was this one of John Lennon and Yoko Ono.
This is a bad quality photo. It was taken 4 hours before he was murdered. How powerful is that. It's so strong too with the contrast between his body and her dark clothes. God I love photography.
I went to this new restaurant called Melt with my parents today. SO GOOD.
click that link and go to dine and click on the melt page then view melt online and you can see some gorgeous pics of this beautiful place.
Going to see Dreamgirls again with my mum tomorrow!
I'm so addicted to that soundtrack...don't worry Tannah Eileen I'm burning them discs for ya.

living in the moment

Happy New year everyone...a little late I know but I've actually had enough of a life lately that I haven't really had time to write.
New years was so much fun. I went and picked up tneme and we drove out to school and partied with the cool kids we are friends with. :P It was weird to be back in my apartment with none of the roomies (well till stace got there) Thanks for the not Steph it put smiles on all our faces...too bad we didn't run into you the next day. Anyways it was a really good time. I was so tired I went home and slept for 14 hours.
I'm so excited because it is confirmed that I am living in Point Loma this summer!!!!!!!!! I didn't know if it would work out but it looks like it will perfectly. I will be living in the one room apartment behind one of my mom's best friends who I love dearly. There's a picture of her on my first post. It was her house in New York that I went to visit with my mom. I could not be more excited right now! Now I just have to get on that job thing and make a resume and ship it off to the nordy's folks and other places. And the car situation will be figured out later.
Now I'm home for awhile with the parents and then they head to bountiful to visit grandpa Doug. But some one's coming to keep me company and I'm nothing but smiles about that.
Can't even wait :)

So I leave with this advice I read on John Mayer's blog because it's been awhile since I've actually read it.
" What makes life so compelling is that nobody can avoid that darkness - I know I won't - but in the moments when things fall into place, they are to be enjoyed as much for what they are as for what they won't be someday...And that's what I've been learning lately. My new mantra: 'While you were, say you did.' "