You might bend till you break......then you stand

The ups and downs of living on your own are extreme. One second I am thinking to myself "can i really do this" and the next I am getting ready for my day singing along to CMT, planning my day in my head. The thing I need to remember is that if I were in Pennsylvania I would not be happy. I do not mean that in a degrading way to the state of Pennsylvania as some people seem to think I do. I have nothing against the state and I have a life there during the school year but I know in my heart it is not the place I want to be in the long run. I am a west coast girl at heart I know that for sure.
I think I miss you more than you miss me....but I am not sure if I miss you for the right reasons and that kinda freaks me out. I cannot let go of you because I am fighting change. I have this theory about change. We all hate it. We are creatures of habit. But I believe it's only those who embrace that change and continue to grow that prosper in this life. I am learning that for myself in order to fully embrace that change and begin to grow I have to establish small amounts of habits so my entire world is not change. There have to be some constants. With that said and my first day of job training completed I am going to finish my training in the next couple of days and begin a journey. Where it will take me I have no idea but that is what life is about. I realize I am so blessed in so many ways especially just to have this opportunity so if I do not embrace it I will whole-heartedly regret it.
Guess it is about time I grew up.
peace and love to all :)

The life of a loner

It is now the fifth day of my independence in California. Day's have been long and slow. Not that I haven't had some fun times but it's been difficult to be alone.
I start training tomorrow so things should start picking up but as of tonight I have no car so I have to work that out. My entertainment for the last few days includes, babysitting Ryan, seeing pirates with Gwen, hanging out on the boat with Brad, finishing the book I was reading, and chatting with Gwen about life. I highly recommend the book I just finished. My mom passed it on to me. It's called The Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls. It's a memoir about her life and her absolutely crazy family.

Driving back from my Grandma's I started thinking.....I was only home for a few days before I moved here and you know what I miss about home (besides my parents and pups)? Home cooked meals! So here's what I propose to you readers....what is you favorite meal your mommy makes? leave a comment and let me know. My favorite is chicken tortilla soup...mmmmmm mmmm.
Alright so leave your fav's as a comment for fun.

Enjoy your memorial day everyone. I'll be spending mine watch the That 70s Show marathon and eating all day. :)

Sunshine

Think of your life as a good book. Sometimes there are twists and turns you didn't see coming, but when you think about it, you realize they were pretty much inevitable. All your hard work has prepared you for this.

What a horoscope. Today is my first full day alone in this state. I drove the Reedhead's to the airport at 7am this morning. Which means I now have a car until Monday night! I came back and slept a little more and then got ready for the day. I am watching my grandma's dog so I took the little old red BMW for a spin to let Sadie out. On my way their I got a call from my cousin seeing if I would take care of his kid for a few hours at 11. So I spent a good hour with the dog and then made my way up the hill to Adam's house. I sat around and watched TV for a couple hours while Ryan just slept and slept. Finally as I go in to check on him around 1 he was sitting up in bed. I heard the front door open and shut and in walks Adam. We sat around and chatted while Ryan laughed and ate and told me stories only a baby could understand. So I'm back here for awhile errands, maybe a movie later...we'll see. Tomorrow babysitting with my aunt Holly on the boat.
I now officially am employed....I have till Tuesday to do whatever I want. Thanks for all your help mom.
The only thing that would make all this even better is a little sunshine.
I'll write again soon
love

I guess if you don't jump you'll never know if you can fly

I'm here! My mom left today and I cleaned up my apartment and finally got everything out of my suitcases. I need a down day. Since we got here I feel like I haven't had time to rest. I'm beyond excited to be here but this is only the beginning and this is when it gets a little hard.....I'm on my own! So things are still up in the air with everything but I am way more at home than in Pennsylvania.
Here are some pics of where I'm living.

Chairs in the corner of the room, a little sitting area.
table by the window with my comp.

Here's my cute little kitchen.

My big bed! and Little closet that all my clothes fit in surprisingly.

Bathroom.

And of course the gorgeous view from my window!!!
So here goes nothing...wish me luck!

I'm nothing but Smiles

It is wonderful to be back in a place that feels so much like home. My mother would tell you 'I'm back with my people'. Today we met up with all the cousins and babies and relatives they make me laugh so hard it hurts every time I see them. The babies are adorable and each have such different personalities. I potentially have a job at Nordstrom.....lol following in the family footsteps tehee. We'll see how that goes. So good to be here but I'm still adjusting to the time and I'm so tired......I think its time for a nap.
Miss and love you all that read this! :)

living one moment at a time

Last Friday was my last final and I turned in my 7 page paper to the nutso proff and walked back to my car a Junior in college. How time flies.
Since then I've been to 4 other states besides PA and I'm about to make that 5. Stacey and I packed our bags and drove 6 hours to Boston. What a long drive. When we finally got there it was a little underwhelming but the room turned out to be nice. We walked a couple blocks to the subway and spent a few hours in Harvard Square. What a difference in the atmosphere. Hard to explaining but it was very cool. The next day we wandered around Boston. We went pretty much everywhere by 4 and we decided to head back to Harvard for some more wandering and dinner. My feet have never hurt so much in my life. I'll post pics later.
We made it back to Kutztown yesterday around 4 and I must say it is good to be back.

Now I'm home and I must get to the packing before I move to SD for the summer.
So much to do, so much on my mind. Mom and I made our way to Target today and I distracted myself with some shopping, Cd's, clothes, presents, and books. It was a good time. And I'm so excited for friday.

But you are always on my mind.

all good things have to come to an end

As this year winds down I realize how good it was. Minus a lot of drama I've become a lot closer with a lot of people. All I have left to finish is a 6 pager for International Cinema, which involves the watching of a few scenes from fabulous movies....can't complain too badly.
There are so many things I will miss about Pennsylvania as odd as that is to say but I am so ready for a break from this place. It is not ME in the slightest and I need to go back and find me in the west. I am beyond excited. This is going to be one of the most adventurous things I've ever done and even though my cousins, aunt and grandma will be close by I am living alone and it's scary. It will be difficult to leave here though, I will cry and I'm usually very good with goodbyes but I know things will be different when I get back. Hopefully in a good way. So since I probably won't write for a few days I just want everyone to know I hope they enjoy their summer's and I'll meet ya back here in this box of a town for most of you peoples last year. EXCITING!
Love the one's your with!

Last Day of Classes

I'm officially done with my last class of my sophomore year of college....crazy how time flies.

All I have left to do before Boston and San Diego is:
religious studies final
American art history final
photography written final
a painting
a 6 pager for international cinema

haha yeah still got a bit left to do but today it's all about ice cream and sunshine!!!

Happy May Day

I'm having a real problem today with being on this coast. I'm frustrated with things that cannot be resolved and I'm ready for 18 days from now. This is how ready I am to leave....I just woke up from a nap where a dreamt I was in the car trying to meet my family for dinner in California but all I wanted to do was stop for some real Mexican food before the Mexican food I was eating for dinner....oh man. Anyways I'll be there soon. Now is just the stress I have to get to before I am rewarded.
It's one of my best friends 20th birthday's today and I'm reminiscing about the northwest and it's not helping my sitch. Anyways Jenny here's to all the good times we've had in the past and many more to come. I hope school isn't stressing you out too badly and you are able to celebrate this lovely first day of May. You are in my thoughts and I miss you!
My parents happily made their way to Italy and my mom called me when yesterday and she thinks I would love it there....of course how could I not. Well parents I hope you enjoy the fabulous view and see George clooney when you go to the bar around the corner from his house. I'll be taking care of the dogs this weekend...no worries.
Time for some more paper writing.
<3