Hot Tub Thoughts

As the buds appear on my favorite silhouette against the sky it feels like the clouds in the distance are soon to part. My thoughts are calm but many. The world seems as if I'm looking at it with fresh eyes. Perhaps that's what it is because that is in fact what I am doing. It has been a long time since I've felt this strong. My mother always told me that she found I changed a lot with in the months before my birthday. I don't know if that is true this year but my outlook on life certainly has. The positivity spark I've been missing has been found again and I feel lighter and happier than I have in almost a year. The joy I find in little things is back.

Suddenly a squirrel scrambles down the tree to my right, to the suet he craves even after he's devoured the entire thing. Leaving none for the birds. I stare straight at him and shaking my head I say, " Don't even think about it." It stops him dead in his tracks. He seems to think that although our eyes are locked I cannot see him because he is still. " Turn around," I say and he scurries back up the tree. He pops his head out a few feet up, "I can still see you." The head retreats and a few seconds later he appears many feet above on a large branch.

I stare out across the yard and through the trees that in a matter of weeks times will have leaves on them. The feeling will change but it will be welcome after the months of frozen forest world. Off in the distance the birds have already begun to sing their songs. I envision myself doing yoga on the back deck as the wind blows through the trees. It's my favorite place here. I can't wait for that again. I find myself composing the lines of a story and realize after the cold winter months, it is time again that I write my blog.